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October 13th, 2009


10:51 pm - Week of Hell
Well, after having the most wonderful time on the long weekend, with an absolutely Angelic child, and seeing a heap of people that we don't get to see often or have not met face to face before we had a nice, relaxing week...Then last friday happened.

Barry was at work, playing touch footy with a few clients, nothing special, nothing out of the ordinary and then whack, he feels like he has been hit in the back of the ankle with a rock, then drops like a sack of potatoes.

Friday afternoon - Appointment with the doctor,
Saturday morning - Ultra-sound on ankle
Monday morning - Collects ultrasound results and sees doctor again. "Total rupture of the left Achilles Tendon"... Requires surgery. Referral to specialist. Gets back to the car and realises he has locked the keys in the car. Calls me, I feed Hannah, get the bus, get into Parramatta to give him my key. We get back home just before 1pm to discover SOME FUCKER HAS BROKEN INTO OUR HOUSE!!!!!

They have stolen my lap top and our video camera. Luckily, because we had been out on Sunday, I still had the camera in the nappy bag otherwise we would have lost all of our photos of Hannah.

Tuesday afternoon - Barry has appointment with specialist, he is booked in for surgery next Monday. Barry's foot is splinted until then. He is not really able to drive. He is completely unable to help me with Hannah, or the housework, or, well, anything at all. 

I had plans for this weekend, plans I really want to keep. I have a friends party and a game on saturday night, I organised today to go to my Aunt's place on Sunday. Now, with Barry completely unable to drive I don't see how we will be able to unless he is willing to let me drive him around, and I don't see how I can convince him that it will be ok.

I am keeping it together, but am looking forward to being alone on Monday so that I can have the really big cry that I feel I need to have to get out all the frustration and anger that I am feeling at the moment.

I can't take it out on Barry. I can't let him know how upset I am that I am probably going to miss this weekend.

*sigh* Never mind... we will get through it. We will simply deal with it.
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Current Music: Dr Who DVD
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September 30th, 2009


07:58 pm - Life in General
Well, life has been interesting. :-)

I am beginning to get the hang of this "Mum" thing. I adore the beautiful little creature we have brought home. She is truly magnificent and astounds me every day :-)

I keep getting caught by looking at her and being swept away with the emotional realisation that this little thing is part of Barry and part of me...

I am getting the hang of breast-feeding, we still have a few struggles,  but we are actually getting there. She is having some issues with gas, but we are learning how to deal with that. We bought her a dummy today, and that seems to be doing the trick. She seems to wake up and ask for a feed only to suck for 1/2  a second and then she falls asleep. So we are experimenting with the dummy tonight. 

We are going down to Canberra tomorrow. This should be fun and interesting :-D

I am looking forward to getting out of the house, I don't actually think I am going to be able to play over the weekend, but I am seriously looking forward to seeing people. Being in a place where i don't have to worry about the mess is also going to be fantastic :-)

We shall see how this all goes and I will update this when i get back :-)

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September 7th, 2009


06:53 pm - Birth !!!!
Well, Hannah Bette has arrived!!!

She was born at 4:54pm on Saturday, 5 September 2009.

She was 4.36kg, Which is 9.6 pounds. Measured 53cm long.

She was rather large, quite difficult to get out, but she arrive eventually. Natural, but assisted delivery. 

She is beautiful, and very, very much adored by both Mum and Dad and all the rest of the family.

Unfortunately, I cannot load up a picture on here, but I have them on my facebook page.  
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September 3rd, 2009


05:21 pm - Labour
Ok, it is now 5:30pm on Wednesday; 3rd September.

I have been in first stage labour for 37 hours. I have managed to have a couple of hours break just now, and got some sleep.

I am getting rather tired. But things are still continuing... It will happen eventually.  
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September 2nd, 2009


06:07 am - Labour
Well, around 4:30 this morning I started the first stages of labour. It is actually looking positive for me to have Podlet today. This is extremely unexpected as it is the day I actually wanted to have the bub :-)

Today is my Mum's birthday. It is also my Grandfather's birthday. If this little one is a boy, it will be named after my Grandfather.

I am looking forward to finding out if I have a Geoffrey or a Hannah :-) 
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Current Mood: [mood icon] chipper
Current Music: TV - Morning Shows.
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August 8th, 2009


09:10 pm - Baby shower
Well, it has been a lovely day.

I had my baby shower. I love my family & my friends. I got so many wonderful things. Some of the high-lights were:

A Winnie the Pooh quilt made by Tina 
A yet to be completed red cardigan being knitted by Jules
Some beautifully embroidered bibs from Desiree (with singlets to come)
Fabulous skull & cross bow socks from Tracey, Gav & Jules.

Had fabulous day, unfortunately, we completely forgot to take photographs :) ah well. 
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Current Music: TV

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August 3rd, 2009


04:13 am - Grumbles about early mornings
Cut due to excessive whining.  )


Current Location: Couch (of course)
Current Mood: [mood icon] grumpy
Current Music: early morning TV
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June 30th, 2009


06:27 pm - help???
 I need people's assistance. 

I have an 80's fancy dress party this weekend. I am 7 months pregnant, I need something to wear. 

I think I am simply going to go with accessories. 

Does anyone have any hints, tips, something to help me out on this one????

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June 26th, 2009


01:06 pm - RIP Farrah Fawcett
With the media spotlight on the death of Michael Jackson, the death of Farah Fawcett seems to be passing without a lot of notice.

www.smh.com.au/lifestyle/people/farrah-fawcett-dead-at-62-20090626-cyg9.html

Farrah Fawcett Dead at 62

Actress Farrah Fawcett, best known for her role in television series Charlie's Angels, has died, her long-time companion Ryan O'Neal says. She was 62.

Fawcett died in hospital surrounded by friends and family shortly before 9.30am on Thursday (0230 AEST Friday), reports said.

After a 3 year battle with cancer this one seems to hit home for me a little more for me.

She passed away, in hospital, surrounded by her loved ones.

May she rest in peace away from the pain of cancer and chemo. 
 


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June 19th, 2009


02:16 pm - I have a few of these people
If there is one person or more on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

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May 28th, 2009


02:20 pm - Pregnancy - yet another - I know. :)

I am discovering there are a few things about pregnancy that nobody really tells you.

 

Cut for being exessively long.  )

Ok, that is probably enough of my rambling for now. A general blurt out of all the little bits I had not previously considered.


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May 19th, 2009


01:57 am
 Well, lots happening at the moment, not all of it mine to tell. :) 

Pod is growing, Barry is feeling kicks now too. However, tonight it has decided not to allow me to sleep. Not great as I need to have my wits about me for tomorrow night. 

I was so tired tonight, and now am feeling wide awake, and unable to sleep. I am going to have to force myself soon though. 

Sorry, brain is simply melting onto the page at the moment. 


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Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Barry Manilow singing on Parkinson on the TV...
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April 30th, 2009


01:42 pm - Interesting week.
Well, interesting week.

 Had a bit of an issue on Saturday morning. Woke up bleeding. Raced to hospital. Many tests, much discussion. Baby is fine, no explanation for why I had a bleed, but it has now stopped. I was in hospital for 5 days all up. I now have to be very careful, I have to make sure I rest. I have to make sure I don't do too much, or take on too much from other people. 

Pod is ok, looking healthy & growing well. I now have a picture. 

I have the rest of this week at home, and have to remain resting. 

EDIT:
Am now feeling decidedly fat, mostly as it is not actually pregnant shape yet. My belly is just kinda fat & heavy :) Can't wait until it pops into baby belly. 
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April 23rd, 2009


01:59 pm - Due date
OMG, due date is 6th September.

How the heck do you get this far pregnant without noticing....

*facepalms*

Apparently, I am not very good at listening to my body...
Current Location: Work
Current Mood: [mood icon] amused
Current Music: Backstabber, Dresden Dolls.

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April 21st, 2009


06:04 pm - Awesome News
Ok, so, after what has been a totally crappy couple of weeks/months. I have now received the most awesome news. 

Barry and I are pregnant. :D

Baby Dismorr is due mid to late September.

Apparently, it was not just stress messing with my appetite, sleep and emotion levels :D

 
Current Location: Home.
Current Mood: [mood icon] ecstatic
Current Music: Beeping of mobile.

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April 9th, 2009


10:58 am - Hibernation time.

Ok, so, this past fortnight has been tough. Very tough. My Uncle, on my Mother’s side, passed away last Saturday (28th March) in between the werewolf and changeling games I received the call to let me know he had just passed.

 

He has been very sick with an uncommon and very aggressive form of Leukaemia. He has battled for a number of years and has hung on since last November so that he could spend some time with his new grandson. Said Grandson, Mitch, was born in December and Leon got to spend 10 weeks with him before he passed away.

 

The funeral was in Melbourne and very, very beautiful. I put a post up about it last weekend.

 

I had a wonderful Sunday, hanging out with Beth, buying a new dress, generally relaxing and finding my peace again. I got home feeling sleepy but quite happy and relaxed. I then was sat down by Barry and informed that on the Saturday, (4th April) while we were driving home, my Uncle on my Father’s side had a heart attack and passed away.

 

The funeral for that was yesterday, 8th April. It was a very lovely service, with a large number of people. A difficult day made just that little bit more difficult by the fact that it was our second funeral in such as short space of time.

 

Barry has been away this week, which also made things a little difficult for me, and no doubt, for him.

 

I am planning to spend Easter in hibernation. I have cancelled any and all plans. I am not going into any crowded placed. I am not going to do anything with any people I do not know extremely well.

 

I will almost definitely be online, but am not planning on spending time in the physical company of many people.

 

I feel like I have been run over a number of times by a rather large truck, both physically and emotionally. I just need some space to… well, heal I think is the best word to use, and process.


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Current Music: Linkin Park - Numb

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April 5th, 2009


09:09 pm
 Ok, Life is fucked up and someone hates my family. 

I had another uncle die yesterday.

The funeral will be on wednesday most likely.

think it may be time for me to hibernate. 
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02:20 am - Funeral
 Well, the funeral was beautiful. Moving, and lovely, with plenty of laughter and good stories.

Leon managed to get a last laugh in. It started storming very loudly about half way through the ceremony it absolutely poured with rain along with huge amounts of thunder & lightening. The rain did not let up until just as the coffin hit the base of the grave. Then it stopped. We were all saturated, our shoes caked in clay and mud, those of us that had slipped were really quite muddy. At least I managed to stay upright…

There were some wonderful stories, and his eldest daughter gave a eulogy. His son, who is the middle child, clearly is focusing on ensuring my Aunt is ok, he was very attentive to her, all day. It was lovely.

His youngest daughter wrote a piece, which completely broke most of us. I am including it in here because it is too beautiful not to share.

Dad,

I have always; and will always have you on a pedestal. You are my marathon running, chilli consuming, black-belting, jaw breaking, apple core munching, trolley riding, Hero.

You gave us your whole self as if it was nothing – as if all men are as devoted as you. I took it for granted that all fathers are as affectionate, fun loving and ever-present.

I will forever yearn for the signature whistle you used when you walked in the front door. You made such a warm and happy home for us, you loved us and you loved Mum. You never let us doubt that, even in times of hardship and rebellion.

I will remember you as the strong father who carried me sleeping from the car, who swam in the surf with me bonded to his back, who came when I called in the middle of the night, who kept me safe.

For each time I cry for you, I will remember you and smile one hundred times more. 

He was clearly loved by so many people and will be missed greatly. 


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March 29th, 2009


11:42 am - Note to self...
I should have learnt by now that posting at 2:30-3:00 in the morning, when I am feeling my worst is just not the wisest plan in the world.

I am coping ok, possibly the lack of sleep is actually a benefit.

Am really very concerned for my cousins. The guilt of being relieved someone is no longer sick/in pain is intense, I remember how bad I felt with that when Karen passed away. 

I have organised our accommodation for while we are in Melbourne. I am not sure what else is happening, don't even know what day the funeral is yet. 

Ok, time to head and get some urgent things, like a swimming costume. Because were we are staying, they have a pool and that will be good for me. 


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02:37 am - Death...
Ok, so, my Uncle passed away tonight (technically, last night, as it is now 3 in the morning).

I was feeling really messed up all day (we had werewolf and changeling today, I found out before werewolf that it was most likely the next 24 hours). 

Basically, I was stressed and on the verge of tears the entire way through Werewolf. Slightest things kept setting me off. Then, as I was attempting to eat dinner I get the message saying definitely tonight.. more tears... followed by a phone call just before VC/ST rant for Changeling saying that it had happened. 

For some reason, I am better able to cope with the fact that he is gone than the anticipation. I have been through all of this before, Karen - was at her bedside, Helen, had all the phone calls, Now Leon. 

I just feel so drained, I can't sleep because I know that as soon as I stop, my brain will start thinking things through and I won't be able to hold it in any longer. 

I really wanted Barry when I got home, but he is sick and was asleep. This would also be bringing up all sorts of things about his mum because Leon was diagnosed about 3 weeks after Karen passed away. I just feel numb, and yet can't stop the tears from falling and the crying. On top of this, we have people staying & more coming tomorrow because it is flat-mates birthday and she is having a thing on. I am going to have to be a good hostess... luckily, many of the people coming are good friends and they will understand. One is a 16 year old boy who was here a couple of weeks ago when I was having a melt down day... I am sure he has a great opinion of us... but I don't care. 

Ok, thank you all for listening. Even if you don't care. 

I will most likely not be on-line over the next week (will be in Melbourne for funeral) but will be taking computer so as to have the option. 


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Current Mood: [mood icon] distressed
Current Music: Cat & Barry both snoring
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